Hikikomori

I've just stumble onto a new word recently and notice that it can describe a quarter of my personality.Hikikomori is a Japanese word for a not studying,lazy,self conscious,unable to interact with others and always having awkward moments with other.Normally lying to others to cover self lost and also causing problems with own actions.These few days i've been causing myself some problems due to my inability to talk to others.

Years past and i still been lying to my friends about part of my life to make it seem interesting enough to be with.But there are some problem that a hikikomori poseses that i do not and that is a inabilty to leave or step out into the outside world other than one self house.But still i've cause some people to hate or despice me.The way i talk to others is nt only rude but selfish.I never know how to speak to other or widen my knowledge about other topic.I normally trap myself with televisyen and sleepng as a life choice.but even due to all that i still don't regret my life as yet.Im still setting goals for myself but always unable to fulfill them.My problem now is more than a mere hikikomori lifestyle but something far worst.i need some professional help in this case.Iam a lazy person due to my inabilties i've cause myself a distance with my friends and also ellow classmates.My actions are inescussble.If anyone have this problem that i poses know please find a way to fix it before its too late.

In my case i think finding salvation is a bit to late of a choice now.But knowing that this problem might haunt me for the rest of my life i will try my best to cure myself and all my faults before turning to an estimate age of 20.