How does things turn out.

Far away in the oceans mid♥
Away from you and away from me♥
But the attraction i have had never faded♥
No matter where you be♥

Now I'm force to see you♥
Over and over till my hearts beat stood♥
But you just walk past me♥
Never hearing my cries for thee♥

Wherever you may be i can always see,♥
A picture of you smiling in me♥
And the day comes when you can hear♥
My heart beating so quickly♥

Although the truth i have ever spoken of♥
I kept it alive on the spot♥
No matter how i urn to speak my heart♥
I have kept it secret from the start♥

Now this is where i end my chapter♥
A love so strong that keeps me fluster♥
When i see you with another♥
I cry......not long after♥

By:Randy S (To a special other)
>hope that you read this

Love is everywhere

It has been about six month since i got over my previous crush on someone in SMKTS now but i'm afraid that i might be falling for another and I'm not sure is it the best for me now seeing that i have no guts in dealing with this kind of things in school.Man i don't know what should i do now, if only i wasn't so afraid of what she might think or what others may think of me after ward's.
It's so complicated for me....arghhhhh!

Thinking of you makes my heart soar,

Seeing that smile of yours,

I leap about some more,

Stepping into the flame of my heart,

Longing for you to see me,

Will this heartache ever be mended,

Or my fate twisted with ease,

I know you can never see me for the light,

But i hope that you can see me fight,

A fight with myself to make things right,

A fight through the end,

A LOVE FIGHT.

1st of April

Ahh another month has passed by, so long March welcome April. 1st day of is a veri special day because it is April fool's day. I'm gonna have some fun today haha. Nothing more to post at the moment so have a happy April.

'Where are you my love wish you were with me now so i can smile again'

Seraya Love Story...It's Complicated

Its been a few weeks now and i have fallen for another girl again but this time its for real not one of those crush and byes.I have fallen for a few girls already in the past but i wasn't sure was it for real.
First it was a girl named wong xin yee yes it used to be one of my friends girlfriend at first so i did'nt dare to approach her.My friends name is Nico Law Kien Mun but not ong after i've realised that it wasnt real,my heart was playing tricks with me.
Ah! thank god though but not long after i fell for another girl 'Cheok Jia Chern' but someone told me she like me but it was long ago by another friend also 'Low Yue Chiao' but i thought it was a joke but i was young and naive then but now i was the one whom fell for her.LOL, i was so embaressed but during the time i liked her there was another with so much more guts than me also chasing after her, not long after i gave up.Haiz i am such a wimp.
Not long after i gotten over its soon after.And afterwards i thought that i'm over all this girl liking but it never ended afterwards i fell in love during my from 3 year it was with a girl name 'Tham Yeen Sin' and this time i really fell for her with her cute but funny personality,kawaii face and the way she acts it was all such an overwhelming sense of heart burn but also pure enjoyment that has never been felt before in my life.'I Love This Girl' i said to myself and this time its true love i think.But as time passed by i found out that even god forbid me to be with her but i'm leaving out the detail because it just hurts to much.
Now that i'm in a new year a new form and a new life i found another.What do i do this time.Why isist so hard.

Coming to an END.......

Holiday going to be over in about 2 day, 2 night haiz==|| back to school so boring la the rutin is always the same.I just wish that everyday in school would be full of excitement just like in an anime, that would be great to see or maybe i should just get myself in a relationship.Nowadays i havent had the feel for love its like i just lost the emotion, what to do except ordinary rutin my entire life as always.Now i really regretted not full filling my childhood.

HAIZ=.="'

Just Whatever..

People tend to say I'm sorry every time they make a mistake whether is the worst thing that ever happened or the smallest thing possible and hope that everything is going to be find later, but it wont.People tend to remember that what you did was wrong and be even more mad when you say sorry because your not taking responsibility on your own actions.Why am i babbling on about this is because this happened to me, one of my inconsiderate friend try to pull of the same stunt recently.He did something terrible even though it will make me mad and just said sorry after doing it, so if anyone when you do something wrong don't just apologize make an effort on how to avoid hurting a friends feeling and be hated by it.This is a very good way to strengthen a friendship or maybe a relation.

One more thing to add to it, I'm going to take this opportunity to make an apology to anyone i have lied to in the past or maybe did something bad to so 'I"M SORRY' and i will make it a duty to no let it happen again.Anyone that read this remember hurting a friend on the inside is worst that what ever beating your friend can take.


'That's hows Randy. C'SS It'{thanks for reading}

Chinese new year...

Its almost chinese new year in about 12 hours and i can't wait the food,drinks,friends and the merriement.Omg can't wait so happy.

Money Money Come Come>>>>>

Today was quite fun even though got school because i didn't went instead 4SC1 and a few 4SC2 went to pandan indah to receive awards for our outstanding PMR results.Even though the area was kinda crappy but we still had fun together taking lots of picture and each of us receive something for our hard work RM100.Wakao that's a lot of money especially there's about 60++ of all of us. Yay make menteri pokai haha...Ok im going to be idle for a while due to some circumstances so keep watchin.

Heaven here comes another angel.

To all who's reading yesterday morning which was 10/01/2010 my childhood friend has passed away due to a heartbreak 'thats what i heard'.After hearing about the news i was shocked.Her name was 'Lim Ying Ying' age 16.Cause of death was unknown to me.But the reason for her death was cause physcologically due to a bad breakup with her boyfriend.

I will miss you and i hope heaven have already open up a space for you.Life is like a brief candle.When you go you go for good there is no backtrack to this short life.

Crimson Blood Chap 1

Veriza Academy us a special school that allows human and vampire to live together in secrecy due to the fact that the humans are not aware of their existence.The two kinds are separated by two classes.Night Class for the Vampire's which they are extremely beautiful and Morning classes for the Human Students where the girl students live to adore the night class students.The ways they keep the night class separated from the morning student is by a 'Y' shaped bridged build there.Two students from the morning class are put in charge of keeping the peach between classes.They are called guardians, and only they know ecxistence of the vampire race.The two of them used to be victims of the bad vampires known as LEVEL E they were both found and cared by an ex-vampre hunter named Kaien whomwas also the chairmen and fonder of the school.The vampires in this school is not as blood thirsty and those known as LEVEL E which they are human turned into vampires by sucking their blood.The two guardians of the night and day are Yuuki Kaien and Zero.Both of them have been like siblings since 6 years ago.

This is the beginning of the tale catch me back next week for another chapter here..............Thanks for reading and if yu have any comment on he storyline please leave me a message.

Never Fret

Ending all of my previous grief because a new year is about to rise and to cover up my past . My new year resolution is this

1.Try harder to study

2.Erase my pain of a broken heart

3.Reducing putting grief tension on friends

4.Be more positive on life’

5.Many more but haven't think of it yet.

Todays the day

I'm actually scared like shit right now because i am going to get my results PMR later on and man am i scared.What should i do to relax , man Im so anxious.

MidNigHT BlUEs,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,;

Now is about midnight cannot sleep adn have nothing to do.What else try to blog about something but keep thinking.What?What?What?.....................................Then it hit me maybe talk about myself abit during the holidays.What else to do but to watch televisyen play some games and maybe go out to KL to take a walk with friends.

Actually now that i typed this it feels kinda idiotic that i am doing this so maybe im not going to say anything.Ha!maybe I'm just a little weird.OK never mind I"m going then thanks for reading.Bye

2012

Saw 2012 today and is was a pretty good movie.It showed many emotions in our self and also in other like anger,sadness,grief,laugh,kindness and love.Besides that it also teaches people to take care and to save mother earth while there is still one.Went to leisure mall to see with family and some parts of it was funny also.

Awake till now thinking..?

I'm so tired but i cannot fall asleep so thought maybe can blog about it.Recently I've been feeling a pain in my heart which is not going away.The fact that i maybe in love with this person hasn't changed one bit till now.I've been making up some bull crap lies so she might go out with me.I think what i'm trying to do is probably scaring her a bit , i may be coming on a little to hard but what should i do.If anybody reads this and is willing to help me would be much appreciated.Just leave your comment on the Cbox. Afterward I've found out the hardships on getting a job at this young age.Now i understand why people go through, just to get a job striving to get a spot amongst many people in order to live on with the earnings that one might get.Its so hard and now i have gained an understanding towards other people. Its about to strike twelve midnight and maybe my life can begin a new from that time on or will it just stop as soon as the clock strike 12.00A.M.It has finally come to this..........

Todays activity

Today i was out searching for a job but found out that most people hiring this days are finding people over 16,17,18,19 years of age.Why is it so cruel.It took me 6 hours to figure out this truth.Today Anyways feeling sad because i ask someone to go out with me but she cannot accompany me..... so sad!!!boring day,now feeling tired wanting to sleep but cannot.Why must this torture continue on.

What else to do?

.So what now that my PMR is over but i feel uneasy of myself on how i did it.Now its almost holiday and i feel to myself i should carry more responsibility and take up a job.I have ask many friends to help me find one,but im afraid that i will not succeed in my interviews.This merely shows that i have no confident in myself or whoever.I think nothing is real and that all is fake.Does this make me too superficial and ignorent?

Hikikomori

I've just stumble onto a new word recently and notice that it can describe a quarter of my personality.Hikikomori is a Japanese word for a not studying,lazy,self conscious,unable to interact with others and always having awkward moments with other.Normally lying to others to cover self lost and also causing problems with own actions.These few days i've been causing myself some problems due to my inability to talk to others.

Years past and i still been lying to my friends about part of my life to make it seem interesting enough to be with.But there are some problem that a hikikomori poseses that i do not and that is a inabilty to leave or step out into the outside world other than one self house.But still i've cause some people to hate or despice me.The way i talk to others is nt only rude but selfish.I never know how to speak to other or widen my knowledge about other topic.I normally trap myself with televisyen and sleepng as a life choice.but even due to all that i still don't regret my life as yet.Im still setting goals for myself but always unable to fulfill them.My problem now is more than a mere hikikomori lifestyle but something far worst.i need some professional help in this case.Iam a lazy person due to my inabilties i've cause myself a distance with my friends and also ellow classmates.My actions are inescussble.If anyone have this problem that i poses know please find a way to fix it before its too late.

In my case i think finding salvation is a bit to late of a choice now.But knowing that this problem might haunt me for the rest of my life i will try my best to cure myself and all my faults before turning to an estimate age of 20.

1 St PosT

this is my second blog.Anyone who see this and know me might say why make another your first was a failure.But no i am going to try hard to complete this one.So to all luck to myself.
LOL.and this is not a joke i repeat this Is not a joke.